Tue, 12 Nov 2002
It was in 1982 I believe, in Switzerland, right after a group meeting with J. Krishnamurti. Time came to say goodbye. I noticed how others very respectfully and others more in the state of 'touching the master.. goodie goodie!' were taking turns to shake his hand and say good bye.
For what it seemed an eternity, I was in a conflict.. between my wish to touch this being and the other inner voice saying
'what bull...., playing the guru game after all, eh ?!"
And while I was going around like a mouse trapped in a cage (there was only one door,.. and K. was standing there) suddenly I saw the situation in a sober way.. a matter of just saying goodbye to someone one has spent time together with.. no fuss, no "shaktipat"-wishes and thoughts of expectations or other glorious and pink astral emotions.
I was the last one in queue and suddenly realized that I was the only one left,.. so..No way out!..- I walked towards him.. shook his hand and said thank you for this time & good bye.. "Yeees sir..!" he said. That's all, on the visually apparent level.
In those few seconds, Also the following happened : He took my hand, and with his other hand my elbow,..it felt as if my whole being and its contents were being shaken "in place".. a current of quite a high speed, passed on thru rest of body from hand, head, toes.. it was like a good & instant shower.. he looked into my eyes,.. I've never seen such dark, deep, large eyes !.. as a space with no end, (which brought a kind of shiver/fear in me, similar to that of heigths), and this to-the-eye invisible .. and yet perceivable.. floods of love, pouring out of his eyes.. a bit like fluid honey would be pouring out of a jar ...
(and some people call him 'dry' and 'intellectual' ?!?)..
I was standing there hardly being prepared for all of that,.. and this little man (he did not reach higher than my chest area) was definetly felt by me, that he was about 4 times taller than me...
Since it all happened so quickly, only when I stepped out of the room, I realized what has happened.
I've had a few buzzes from other gurus (before I met JK.), but not as delicate/subtle, clean and sober as this one.. and without feeling that I was burdened/loaded/imposed upon by -some-Thing, as in other cases ..
He was a rare one ! I've read that he said himself (in spite that he hardly ever talked about this kind of mystical stuff) that there will not be another like him for another 500 years,.. the reason for this being the necessity for a body that can withstand the enormous volume of energy that passed through his body.
And my mind, at times, throws up the the question: does such an encounter, leave some kind of a 'seed' in one , or is it just another 'wow'- experience ?
I'll probably never know,..
(and it is probably a form of hidden wishful thinking,..)
and probably, it does not actually matter either.